sad news

Today my step-dad's father passed away. He was 85. I wasn't really close to him but I'm praying for my step-dad that he will be able to make it through this.

alive vs living

I've really been thinking for about a week now about writing this post. I think for at least the last 6 months maybe longer I've been experiencing spiritually not being able to see the forest for all the trees. I'm not sure how to explain it. Sometimes I wonder why it is so hard to find something that is right there. My pastor has used that verse "laying hold of that which has laid hold of you" a lot in the past year. For me, I know God is there. I can feel His presence. I know that He has laid hold of me. I wonder, should I even be looking for God since He has already found me. And if I should, why does it seem like I can't find Him, especially when I know He's not hiding from me. It's perplexing definately and perhaps just a spiritual battle that I am facing. I wouldn't say I'm losing the battle because God is right there and I have the Holy Spirit, but at the same time I wouldn't say I'm winning either. Jars of Clay sing this song where there the lyrics go "I've got a question, where are you." That's not exactly my question. I know where God is, but finding Him has has been a little difficult. If you have read this far, I'd appreciate hearing from you with your comments.